This blog has been lying somewhat dormant for the past couple of months. Work and life in general got the better of me. But I’m going to make a good attempt at getting back on track during April. I’m joining the Blogging A-Z Challenge and am going to try to get further than I did last year.
“Accept yourself, love yourself, and keep moving forward. If you want to fly, you have to give up what weighs you down.”Roy T. Bennett, The Light in the Heart
It’s been a long year. So much spent in lockdown that I kind of lost myself somewhere along the way. I maintained my weight for so long that I thought it was just be like that. Whatever I ate or drank. But no, gradually from about September onwards it crept back on. Until 2 weeks ago I exceeded my highest ever weight. It was time to accept the facts and make a decision. Doing nothing was not un option unless I wanted to buy an entire new wardrobe of clothes.
This quote speaks to me so much. It reflects so many of the actions I’ve had to take over the past 10 years. To find out who the real me is. To walk away from parts of my life that were causing me damage and pain. The remaining battle is my weight. Part of me wants to just be accepting that I am overweight and live the best life I can with it. But the other me knows that I am not as healthy as I can be or indeed need to be. At this weight I easily get out of breath and I do feel it in my knees on a long walk. So, I have to make changes.
Two weeks ago I decided to restart the intermittent fasting. I’ve kind of been doing it, but not in a mindful way. I also began to cut down on the wine that has become a feature of our evenings. Both were easier than I imagined. It also seemed an idea to reduce my carbohydrate intake because it worked well last time. At the end of the first week I’d lost 3lb and this week just a half. I’ve been less strict this week gone, so time to focus.
So that’s A. Acceptance of who I am and want to be and a new impetuous to get to the place I want to be.